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2004-06-10 at 11:54 p.m.

Not been doing much. Staying in the house, eating junk food (when I remember, funny how I forget to eat when I'm by myself), staying awake all night and being exhausted, on a bizarre hormonal rollercoaster. Like being 14 again, most strange, maybe because I kind of stopped my meds for a while. Maybe just general weirdiness. Anyway been having most peculiar, but rather entertaining daydreams involving half the cast of CSI and Trevor Eve from Waking the Dead. I even found myself writing fanfic for CSI - but only because I thought of a good idea for a mystery story involving plant disease (specifically, smut lol) and Edward I. Only on chap 4 though.

Other than that...really nothing. Been very hot here lately, not a good thing as I've had too much energy so been running around my room, thinking (habit of mine, I run about when I think, and/or make conversations with people in my head and say them aloud). So, general sweaty mess is me. But no one has been able to see me so thats ok, even been able to wear short sleeves (yay!) and shorts (icky legs) so all good.

I'm going up North tomorrow, where apparently it is colder. Only problem is that I don't really want to catch the 1:30 train I have a ticket for because I am tired and want to sleep in. Would rather be by myself but parents would be pissed off if I did that, because I promised to go up. Only reason I don't want to is because I like being alone and I won't get that up there. But never mind. Will work on the fic when I'm there. And it will be cooler. And I should probably stop smoking so much anyway as my lungs feel like an ashtray. I don't need to smoke so much, its just habit, so at least when the parents are there I don't do it so much. Which is one of the reasons I don't want to go on the train I'm on, apparently the smoking carriage is full, not that I can't last three hours without one, mind you, its not a problem, but I would prefer it if I didn't have to. But never mind, I'll live and I can always see whether people don't turn up to the smoking carriage if I really want to.

Hmmmm what else? Really haven't been doing much. Spoke to Shirley, she's off to Cuba, went yesterday. Rang Neil and Drew but neither was in. Texted Lynn but no reply. Don't know whether they're all annoyed because I'm not too good a communicator with my friends offline, or just busy.

Went to vote today. Almost didn't get to because we requested postal ballots and they didn't arrive, but I went to the polling station anyway and they said that the council had just decided that we hadn't asked for postal votes so I was still able to vote. It was London Mayor, local council and European Parliament elections today. Voted for Simon Hughes (Liberal Democrats) for London Mayor, even though the guy has a reputation for jumping on young men (I mean 18+) and has buggy eyes, but I didn't want to vote for Labour. Voted for Respect: The Unity Coalition (anti-war) for the other two. Couldn't really think of anyone I wanted to vote for and I was tempted to just spoil my ballot papers but I voted in the end. Wonder whether Blair will resign if Labour does badly? Most people didn't sound keen on voting for them. Apparently the huge number of 50% of people have voted in milton keynes or somewhere - is it just me, or is ONLY half of the population a really crappy number going out to vote? 90% is good, 50% is a disgrace. I'd make it compulsory to vote myself, but no one asked me, so hey. Seems funny that I voted for other parties though - I used to be an active member of the Labour Party and they still send me junk mail. In fact I worked on overhauling their website once, too. But then, my first ever vote I cast for Socialist Labour so maybe it was all written in the stars or something. Anyway they've pretty much lost their credibility through ignoring their constituents and their party members lately. I'd vote for Gordon Brown, but not Blair, not anymore.

Hmmm, thats about it. Can't really think of anything to say and I want another drink anyway. Later.

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