Sleeping Problems

2004-02-26 at 9:24 a.m.

Well, I've buggered up my sleeping patterns well and truly. I fell asleep yesterday in the daytime and woke up at 8pm. So I watched some weird programme on Five about kleptomania (which said people like us with impulse control disorders are less evolved than other people, nice) then I went to bed. Woke up at half four am and I've been online ever since.

I have to see the dentist (its just a checkup) at 2:30 so I'm just putzing about till then.

Not sure if I'm going to go to that SI event thingy. I quite like the idea of going but I have no one to go with, and I'm worried that I might, I dunno, meet one of my old teachers or something. What a stupid thing to be worried about? I'm 23! I left school years ago! I don't know, just a bit worried I guess. I might go, its only along the road, on the 15 bus route.

I hate mucking up my body clock, I always end up a bit depressed. Though thats probably more to do with Aunty Pat's letter than anything else. I can't believe she was so horrible and so unjust towards us.

I've done nothing lately. I meant to write some mini-essays for my other site, haven't managed it. I meant to write some poetry. Didn't manage it. I've done nothing but sleep, chat online, wander about overeating and smoking too much.

*sigh* Not that I'm really depressed or anything. Hardly surprising as I managed to take a couple too many pills by mistake. I just feel nothing at all, I suppose bleak is the word. But with too much energy for no reason. I need to ring my friends. I need to post a card to my nana as its her birthday today. Lots of things I need to do. Don't know if I'll manage them.

I want some sort of purpose. Maybe I should become a vicar. Or something.

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