Congratulations on my typing...

2004-01-08 at 11:05 p.m.

I liked the other diary template a great deal, but I fancied a change. Its taken a while of looking before I found one I liked though! Now I just have to go through and tidy the various bits of this diary, the cast page etc, to make sure they fit and aren't all badly formatted etc. I've been meaning to do it for ages. I've archived the entries from last year, too. Maybe superstitious, but I'm hoping for a better year, this year.

Actually, I feel a lot better. Not 100% wonderful all the time, but I think the balance has shifted from "very depressed with very occasional content times" to "content with occasional depressed times". Looks like the new drugs are working.

Actually I had a good day today. In my neverending quest for a job I found myself at one of those recruitment agencies. Well, I did a typing test, and was most gratified to receive fulsome congratulations and expressions of wonder at my score! (I type at 75 words a minute, fyi) Not bad for a self-taught, four-fingered typist! Thats what happens when you spend way too much time on the internet!

Anyway, they think I should have no trouble getting a job as a secretary or typist. I have my typing speed, plus the fact that I'm a native English-speaker to thank for that! So, with any luck, I should be in work before long. They're sending my CV off to companies now, and I'm to go back in on Thursday or so, to take some more tests.

So, I'm quite pleased about all that! My game plan at the moment is to work as a secretary/whatever brings in money for maybe a year or two, and try to save some money during that time. Then, I'll use that money to fund, or partially fund, a masters, and maybe a Phd. If I work in secretarial work I could maybe get some typing or audio typing to do after university hours during a postgrad course, which would be good. In any case, I have to stop being unemployed - its looking more and more dodgy on my CV. Fortunately, half the people employed in London seem to be complete idiots, so I should have no trouble. If they can get a job...

I'm seeing the psychiatrist for the last time on Tuesday. I think I'm going to ask for a slight change in my dosage, and ask whether I need to continue seeing someone. Part of me is curious to see what another psychiatrist would be like, but to be honest, I don't want to be seeing doctors forever and I'm haunted by the fear that I'll get a dodgy one. Plus, how am I to explain disappearing off once a month? I can't tell any employer I'm seeing a psychiatrist, they'd think I'm a nutcase, and probably sack me. I'd have to invent an illness or a sick granny or something. So, I'll see what he has to say. I'll have to decide whether or not to tell him I'm still cutting, if more infrequently than before.

The Christianity & SI project is coming along slowly, for all that I'm unemployed I never seem to have any time! Still at least I have reference materials now. And if I get a job I might just pay to become a member of Dr Williams' Library (a private theology library in Euston, London) which I used during my A-levels, and which is a fantastic theology library.

Tomorrow, I'm off to the Jobcentre to sign on, but they should be pleased that I'm on an agency's books at least, and that I've applied to various places. So...this is content-me :)

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