Cut last night

2003-11-09 at 10:12 a.m.

In doing so I found out that all my razor blades are a bit blunt. I need to get some more (you can buy just the blades...unfortunately you get funny looks because they're intended for men, but hey, they're 50p, I don't care). I hate using blunt blades, I always either end up going overboard with them or not far enough - so that the next day i just want to do it all again.

Note to self: do not use plasters to stop blood getting on the sheets! It hurts a lot taking it off again!

Anyway, I don't regret it. I never do, anymore. Cutting has just become "something I do". I know enough not to accidentally kill myself, and how to stop bleeding that won't clot, so I'm no longer worried about it. After all, my arm is already covered in scars, why not reopen/make new ones there? The only ones which bother me are my wrist, because thats by far my favourite place (you feel more) but the cuts go away so fast!

Hope Elf will be ok.