I have to cut....

2003-05-19 at 12:39 a.m.

I can't bear it.

I just want to cut, and cut, and cut, until all I see is blood, and then cut some more.

I want to die, I want to go out in a big pool of blood, choke on it, I just.....

I can't.

I've been trying to resist this all night and I can't do it anymore!

I've been shaking and jittery with it all, biting my wrists, rocking back and forth....but its not enough, its never enough, I can't do this.

There aren't any words anymore.

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